my room is available for rent under 225 a month and i will be moving to the garage for the summer until i go to graduate school. i have carpet ready to lay down after i sweep the garage and it has electricity.
so i need to learn this song on guitar pretty soon
I have been sifting through my old writing and my past life as of late and I feel as though I am going through a depression. A sort of dumbness that is not helping my self-worth. While i feel Dumb as an astethic within music and art is a joyful amusing occasion, it does not help when your brain can not counteract between the two. My life seems to have come to a halt and its has not felt good. Add a minnesota winter to my poverty wretched life in a neighborhood that is depression on its own can lead to an epitaph of horribly depression proportions. I need education. I need to walk outside. I want to meet more people. I have succombed to just be merely a critic of everything. I feel like i have become something I never wanted to be. A lifeless, young man with goals he feels are unnattainable. Add student loans, a bad job (not in my field by the way whatsoever), negative temperature weather and a healthy dose of loneliness and it might make everyone feel this way. I need to get out. I need to revive. I need to rebel against this so called modern life. If someone can help please do please do. I dont want this anymore.
yay i got this cassete tape copier for 6 dollars at st. vincent's thrift store on 29th and 12th ave. i like this thrift store alot and its 3 blocks from my house.
I have been pretty much single for over a year and a half. I kinda wish i had a girlfriend. really i just want someone to kiss and cuddle with that is a sweetheart. :) i shouldn't write this but everyday i wake up lately the more and more i wish someone would notice that i am a nice guy and would be someone. I have crushes all the time but have no idea how to go past that. I have social anxiety at parties unless im really drunk and even then i feel awkward. I think the day will come but i don't really want to date someone unless i'm completely infatuated with them. maybe that's my problem.
